So I’m feeling down today because one of my idea for my SBB course project got shot down like Porkins attacking the Death Star, so now I feel completely dumb and stupid.

It goes like this: for my SBB course I need to write an evidence based research paper that is publication-ready. For those of you who speak regular English, I basically have to write a thesis paper based on blood bank stuff. While we were discussing the project in Indiana, everyone in my class seemed to have these great original research ideas that included novel ideas, applying to review boards, doing trial experiments, etc.

I had nothing.

After some thinking, I came up with what I thought was a good and interesting idea (I won’t bore you with the details, because you won’t get past this paragraph without falling asleep in your own drool puddle). My education coordinator was a little concerned that it wouldn’t work out, so I asked the director of my lab what he thought and if he could help.

For his answer, see above.

So yeah, feeling kinda stupid today. I know that rejection is just a thing and it’s the idea not me and it’s no big deal and I was maybe overreaching and…. whatever. I don’t do well with rejection. It’s why I never really took writing seriously. But it’s not only that. Everyone else in my class seems to be so researchy-cool and know what they are doing. Am I the guy they are all looking at and thinking, “Well, at least I’m not as dumb as that guy”?

I do have a couple of other ideas that I can use. I just have to settle on one fast, since the plan proposal is due like… now. But I guess I’ll just have to figure something out and get the job done, one way or another.

Or else, I’ll just fail.
(That one’s for you, honey)  😉


Posted on December 13, 2012, in Aspergers. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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