That’s So Nice Of You

I appreciate when people are friendly. I really do. But I would much rather someone just smile and walk by instead of trying to have a conversation with me. Most people enjoy the interaction; for me it’s just too difficult.

Yesterday morning at church – after surviving the weekly “Sharing of the Peace” (which I’ve blogged about before) – I was waiting for my family by the car when a couple was walking by on the way to their car. I don’t know them well, but I do know that they are nice people. They were havivng a conversation between themselves as they walked by, so I think I’m safe. As they pass me, the woman touches my elbow (!!!!!!!!!) and starts up some small talk with me.

Now, I have enough experience with you normal people to know that I’m supposed to talk back. I just can’t do it without a significant amount of effort. It doesn’t feel right. But I do it. And, unbelievably, it works! No weird comments, no crazy faces – a successful social interaction!

As the couple leaves, stress leaves my body in a huge sigh almost as if I was a pressure cooker. I couldn’t help but feel stressed and a little triggered for the rest of the day, though. It worked out well, but I would rather not have to use up so much energy just trying to appear normal to the world.

Posted on November 14, 2011, in Aspergers, Social Anxiety. Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.

  1. sweet, If it were me, id freak just at the unexpected personal contact. i can deal with interaction, incredibly well, if i may say. i love reading your blogs, its nice to be able to see the world from another aspies eyes…

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